SOUVENIRS

Browsing through old photographs, not very much old though made me rewind the past..Categorizing it to good or bad is the very next step.It was just more or less a moment to realize how many human beings still do exist in my life or not..temporary or permanent..Many who i have avoided being in contact or they have avoided being with me.
Reasons are many..ego,attitude,external factors internal factors..
I have missed many in my life with these many factors..i regret for loosing them for someones happiness..Am I not the looser here!Others might have a hundred reasons to loose me..My behavior  or let it be anything, some I do care,some I don't!
Had a certain past which had made me pull out certain good people.Finding an alternative for them is not ever easy.They can loose you when they have found an alternative or they get into a different better company.I tried the same technique,but never could find the perfect company who could understand the real me!U feel the ping when the daily conversations end,meet ups become rare or any sort of contacts die off!
Not an easy task to get rid of those souvenirs u had with them..photographs can be torn apart but not your mind..

Dream not True!

She has never been looked dull.The beauty always stayed with her for ever,the bright kajoled eyes and the red bindi always added an extra essence to her beauty.the classic sarees draped around made her look more special.As time passed by she turned more beautiful and classic.

But now when i walk into that pitch darkness of life pushing out others to sides,i feel the beauty has vanished.the smile is no more.the bindi no more makes her beautiful.it has faded away to the light peach.she has turned dark,the bright eyes have been shut.they no more see the world.

the change from bright sarees to the draped white cloth has got that man down!he is been cornered staring at me.the eyes raising the question who for me next.
the weakest man i could see in life.he sits blank speaks okay to who condolence him.i walk near him hold him around..
he hold my hands tight. holds me around..what should i tell him..i have just one duty to support him.
i stare at her why did you go away leaving us..on my knees sit beside her to get her back..stare at her lost beauty preparing my mind to reality not to loose out my tears in front of him..need to gain my strength but the lost beauty washes my eyes..

my eyes get moist..i wake up to a new world..hope not that to be true..

Rainy Emotions!

Rains!the wonder sense of refreshing Earth!

they say it refresh your souls..

the phase of enjoyment..

every single drop seems 

telling a story it means

but some are far way to

get along with the untold stories..

they speak out your heart 

they long for the untold part

Now the feel of lonely heart!

the rains seems to be a blast..

the long awaited hands

lost it for others..

not the happiness of yours

the happiness of others

the thought of living

living for others

why do we do that!

the roads wet,the green around..

i stare at it,the loneliness

the longing heart is no more..

the selfishness has crossed me

but not for me..

the smile of others..

i look at them..

the soul is no more the same

its a piece of matter closed

enough not to open again

i lost it again

for someone again..! 

The long lost LOVE!

Do You Have a Long-Lost Love?

A path that your life might have taken except for circumstances? Someone you'd like to have made a life with, but it just didn't work out?
Have seen couples rejoining hands after years and form the best and amazingly lovable once.
Seeing them just a random strike of feelings passes by!

How strong that bond can be!Even after the big bang break up many stay attached,may be not through the physical means or even intellectually!But there is something which still holds them..
The break up maybe for anyone or for any kind off reasons valid or invalid is a second thought which might walk back even after a long time.

You try moving on.the very first thought would be to shift the environment you are living now!A new job,house ,can be anything to forget the past! This can be a shift just to get it away when your eyes are wide open;once its closed,the pitch blackness will rewind all to the past..She might turn back and smile at you or even your thoughts might wander why don't we form that relation back!Why don't you even turn back to me..Give a rethought!

we move on we try overcome that failure or even be working hard to get things out!We walk into let our talents out.

Still we long to get that long lost Love's support beside us!just hope she could have sculpted me into a better human!Maybe no one else could match her generosity of spirit, warmth, intelligence, and love of life.

Maybe later you might crave to hear her back..Just for her words as the support you need..she might have felt the same but no more a relation!the past has taught you a lesson.Enough of the sufferings you went through..The safe long distance has added more romance to both of them!They might be dating even different persons the whole hear ted love may not last long or even might end in marriages!But not necessarily it should be so special like the very first long lasted love..Still the heart craves for that special love,the warmth of that is never been replaced!

THE LAST HIT..!

i don't think the new generation parents would dare to hit their child if they find them doing a mistake.they would preferably feed in their kids with more money and luxurious life.this topic walked in only because of my parents and we were busy counting the incidents i was hit hard for my mistakes.
we categorized to four parts;
1.for academics
2.for other mistakes
3.hit by Dad
4.hit/pinch by Mom

in this categories the pinch by Mom is the maximum for both academics and other activities..still i have did mistakes and i had my chance for correcting them..i feel proud that they had the courtesy to correct me when i was wrong and stand by my side in my difficult times..

today when i see new generation daddy's and mommy's artificial love for their kids i find it odd.do they correct them for the mistakes..you might hit / scold them for their mistakes but is it with your full heart or with a thought to get them through the right path..i do really wonder..i'm not a parent to comment on it now,i might find it difficult then to correct my kids but i have some chapters in my life from my role models,to lead them through the right path..